Quick Blog!

Build-A-Bear Workshop is a pretty cool place. Yesterday, I made a new teddy bear for my friend.  (This should not be confused with the Tiddy Bear as seen on TV and The Ellen Show!)  Sometimes we do not have the words to say, or even the courage to say some words sometimes, I feel that a Build-A-Bear can communicate for you.  The only problem I had with the experience was that I wanted to keep Faith for myself.  Don't you think she is a cute teddy bear?  Anyway, I also dressed Faith kinda like me and realized that sometimes I am not as feminine as I could be.  I guess this is who I am but in our society it is sometimes hard to be a female who is not very feminine.  I imagine that it is easier than being a man who is not masculine though.  Silly gender rolls.  And I will just mention also that I am SO not gay.  Whenever I talk about my lack of femininity, I feel like people start to question my sexuality.  It doesn't help that I am also a Physical Education teacher.  For some reason, there is a stereotype that makes people think that female PE teachers are automatically gay.

Wow!  I didn't know this post would turn into a discussion on my sexuality.  I apologize for that!  Just thinking about all of this reminds me of a conversation I had on the phone with my mom a few years ago.  Mother, I apologize for this addition, if it offends you in any way.  I have told this story many times over the years and decided just now that my blog readers might find a little humor in it.  I was talking to my mom about a relationship with a man that was really frustrating me at the time.  Here is how the conversation went:

Alice:  I am just so sick of boys they really irritate me!

Mom:  Well, are you sure that you don't like girls?

Alice:  Um...I really am sure that I like men.  Girls just don't do it for me.

Mom:  Well...how would you know if you haven't tried?  

I quickly changed the subject because the next question I had in my mind to ask her was:  Well, how would you know if you haven't tried?  And I really didn't want to get into that awkward conversation seeing the conversation was already awkward enough!  Silly Sue.  Anyway, I thought that would be an entertaining discussion to share.  I wonder if my mom even remembers having that conversation.  It was a very long time ago, back in the college days, but it is a conversation I will never forget.

I recently read the StoryCorps book entitled:  Listening is an Act of Love   This is a great book and I highly reccommend it.  Basically, it is a collection of people's retelling of their their life experiences.  There are booths located around the country where people can go and be interview by a family member, friend or even a facilitator.  Anyway, you should check out the website at:  http://www.storycorps.net/

Unfortunately, the story I just shared with you all about the conversation with my mother would not be one of my top choices for what I would want to talk about given the chance to tell a piece of my life to the world.  I guess for today it will do though! :)