So this is what Winning Feels like!

Last night my basketball team actually won! It was an amazing game that actually went to overtime with an almost at the buzzer shot made by one of my players. It was so fun to actually see my girls happy after a game for a change. It was awesome. We won 47-41 in overtime. It was awesome!

I still am kinda done with the season though. We have another game today and I really don't feel like I have a weekend this weekend. Maybe I am just being grumpy these days. Work has been different. It seems as though all of the wind in our sails has died. The passion is missing. I think we are all going through the stages of grief. We have been in denial, we have been angry and we are getting to acceptance but not very quickly. I really just wish we would know what is going to go on with our school next year. This whole change business is not my favorite that is for sure. Why can't things just always remain the same? Wait, I am always complaining about things being mundane and monotonous, so maybe I just need a bit of a change of attitude. Wait, I am not to that point yet. I am still pretty content with being angry and cynical. So there!

I am now off to finally get dressed and head to the school. It is 2pm. I am still in my pajamas. I like these kinds of days. I have accomplished a little of grading today, which is a good thing. I must now go and put some stuff into the computer at school. See....exciting!

Well, I hope you are all enjoying the weekend and I am hoping that my posts have not been too depressing for you all. Thanks for all your nice comments. I really do appreciate all the support I have from all of you! Love ya!

Wednesday...half way there, right?

Hey. Just got home from playing The Wii at a friends house. I like the Wii.

Today in Leadership class we made our Valentine's Boxes. I think the kid are pretty excited to have a party. One of the kids actually said today: "Alice, you are making Valentine's fun again!" Funny how they think it was all my idea when they actually brainstormed the party idea! Silly kids. I am glad we have decided to have the party because I usually get a little blue on Valentine's. I usually call it Singles Awareness Day because you never feel as single as you do on Valentine's Day. SIGH.

I am tired. I should be sleeping. Maybe I will go do that now!

New Slippers

Sometimes you need something to perk you up and make your day. These slippers that I paid a whole 4 dollars for were just that perk. It was a nice thing.

I did laundry and I hate doing laundry.

The feelings are work are just not as upbeat as they usually are.

I am glad for slippers.

Watching TV in 3D Brings Back Memories.

I picked up some 3D glasses to watch one of my favorite TV shows in 3D tonight. It was not that impressive. Maybe it is cooler when you are younger. I kept being bugged by the weird colors and only watched half in 3D. Lame. I guess I am not young anymore. It did make me remember being young though, so I guess it wasn't a total loss.

Today was a typical Monday. I did not want to go to work and the students didn't want to be there. I am really irritable lately. I do not know if it is because I am too tired or if it has everything to do with being frustrated. I think it has everything to do with the news of the school and how it makes it seem not worth going. That, of course, is not true, but sometimes the way we feel makes falsehood seem true.

I bought a lot of stuff for my Leadership Class' Valentine's Day party. I told my students of my hatred of Valentine's Day and they decided that we should have a party to make me like Valentine's Day again. We are going to decorate shoe boxes just like in Elementary School and also give each other cards. I think it will be fun. I even wrapped my box tonight and plan on decorating it tomorrow. Exciting.

Well, it is four minutes past bedtime. I best be moving to bed!

Change.....hmmm not always good!

Well, I have not blogged much this week because of a numbness of emotions.

Mom-Please do not worry. This will sound bad but it could make for some possibilities in my life.

We found out this week that our school is going to be cut by about 50% next year. The Utah Legislature is going to cut the education budget by about 11 million dollars for the next year. This is going to cause every district in the state to do some major budget cuts. Our district is hurting bad already and this has only made the problem worse. Anyway, what this means for our school is that it is going to be restructured. There will not be any freshmen at Independence next year. There will also only be a staff of about 9 instead of the 18 teachers that now teach. (Funny how my mom a few weeks ago said to me: "Good thing you and your sister are in a profession where you do not have to worry about job security").

I was really mad about this news. Not only do we all fear for our jobs at our school but we also are a family and I cannot imagine walking through those halls with half of my family gone. Also, we care about our students and in the end that is who is going to hurt by this decision to cut our program. I am not too worried about my job. I feel I have a good chance to be one of the nine that stays seeing that Health and PE are required core classes and I am the department, but you never know. I have already come up with a plan as to what I would do if out of a job. I probably would move back to Wisconsin and work some half the pay job for a year until I could get accepted into the journalism graduate program in Madison(I missed the deadline for Fall 2009 already!). I also may work in the District for a year(I am tenured so if I am not at Independence they will try an alternated placement for next year at a different school) and then proceed with the same plan. It is all up in the air until we know exactly what is going to happen with Independence and the state budget. (the state legislature will finish voting in the next week or so)

I really don't want to work at any other school and I do not have a mortgage to pay so I am in a good place to make other plans in life. I am working real hard right now to pay off my car so that debt will not kill me if I decide to do something else in life. It is funny how sometimes your plans are laughed at by the guy upstairs. I was perfectly content with just waiting and seeing what happened in my life but plans always change and sometimes we may be forced to do different things. So all in all, I have been mad, sad and angry this week. That is normal. I am getting to the point of acceptance of this huge change in my life but I am not quite there. I may be a little weepy about it for a few weeks so let's not talk about it! (that was mainly for mom or any of you that may be close by and actually have a conversation with me.)

I still am one of the faith that thinks everything happens for a reason and that things always work out in the end. This is just another bump in the journey. It will be exciting(even if a little scary) to see how things will work out!

Well, have a great day! I am going to live in denial until the plans are all finalized. I am going to see a movie tonight and go to lunch with some friends this afternoon. Cheers!