I love music. All kinds of music. I don’t really have a whole lot of music that I hate, even though most rap does fall into the category of music I’d rather not listen to.
I am a church-goer. I feel that my faith helps me to deal with life problems and find hope in a world that often feels hopeless.
My Sunday meetings are filled with worship music. I love to sing hymns, but many times I don’t get through the song. See I have this disorder. It’s called “when I feel the Spirit, I ugly cry.” Obviously it isn’t an actual diagnosis, but I have diagnosed myself with it.
Spiritual music just makes me cry. Today we sang a hymn entitled: “In Humility, Our Savior.” It’s a short song with only two verses, but it is packed with meaning.
These words of the first verse got me:
“Let me not forget, O Savior,
Thou didst bleed and die for me
When thy heart was stilled and broken
On the cross at Calvary.”
Oh did I cry. Just so you know, it’s really hard to continue singing while crying. So, I just sat and cried. I did join in for the second verse only to again lose it with these words:
“Then when we have proven worthy
Of thy sacrifice divine
Lord, let us regain thy presence;
Let thy glory round us shine.”
What words of hope. How personal they are to me. To know my Savior bled and suffered for me personally, for all my shortcomings and heartbreaks. And then to one day truly be worthy of that sacrifice and be able to mingle with Jesus again is hope indeed!
