I should be sleeping Alice right now.

Thursday. Special Day. The day The Office is on. It was an okay show. Kind went to fast if you ask me. I hate when it is only thirty minutes long.

I am tired. I should be sleeping. I don't want to sleep. Weird. Usually, I am good at going to bed. Not tonight. I am writing very short sentences. Peculiar.

I don't have much else to say, so this is it. I hope you had a great Thursday.

If you really knew me...

I did this during third hour today.  I made my students do a silent "If You Really Knew Me..." for two minutes and this is what I typed:

IF YOU REALLY KNEW ME….

 You would know that I struggle with my third hour .

You would know that I get tired of yelling at them

You would know that for a while I gave up on "challenging"  them because they complained too much.

You would know that I know it is more than just not wanting to share feelings but that it is hard to share feelings.

You would know that I haven't been living up to the challenges I made for myself in July at Next Step, but I really want to turn around

You would know that I have great days when I decide to have great days.  Attitude is everything.

You would know that I really want all of my students to succeed but I don't know how to do it and that makes me really sad and disappointed.  What is the secret answer?

You would know that I am glad I was able to do if you really knew me because I missed it.

If you really knew me you would know that I hate to cry in front of people and it is always easier to keep that in and be tough but I have learned that that doesn't help me.  I need to cry sometimes.  I wish we would teach people that it is okay so that when people were crying they wouldn't be judged as weak or weird.

You would also know that I wish more people around me would actually be more real about their emotions because I know there are people in my life who are hurting real bad but won't reach out for help and I want to be there for them but it is hard when they won't reach out and admit that there are things that hurt.

You would also know that this has been the best start of a school year I have ever had because I have chosen to make it good.  Each day I try to figure out who I can reach out to and help and I LOVE all of my students,  even those ones who get under my skin and make me want to throw things!  I am so glad I have found this key to make it through every day because life is hard but so worth it!  Yipee!!!!!

Happy Birthday, MOM!

It is my Mom's birthday today. I am very glad she was born! This is not only because if she were never born then I would have not been born, but it also has to do with all the many ways in which she is awesome.

1. My mom would do anything for anybody. People wouldn't even have to ask her for help. She knows when people need her.
2. She is hilarious. Case in point: see picture from San Francisco above. She was very nervous about my friend and I riding on the side of the Cable Cars. We decided to take her picture while the Trolley was not moving. Guess what happened as soon as my friend was taking this picture? Yep, movement. Funny story.
3. She is one of the kindest people I know. Everybody who meets her falls in love with her and her kindness.
4. She has made me into who I am today. I am so much like her and that makes me happy. Each time I look at my hands I think of her.
5. She supports me in anything I do. She always writes nice notes about me in cards. She also listens to me and gives great advice and even loves me if I don't take the advice!

There are hundreds of other reasons but I am tired. Sorry for that!

Today there was a hilarious story from my eighth hour Health class. We are learning about Stress Management so today was a day to relax. We were doing mental imagery and "going on vacation in our heads" as I would prompt them to think of different things. You know, the classics like the beach and palm trees. Anyway, in the middle of this I hear snoring. I tried to keep my composure and keep the rest of the class relaxed when the snoring got so loud I just couldn't keep from laughing. So I did which made everybody lose focus. We didn't know who was snoring because two students were in the area where the snoring was coming from. We finally found out who it was as one of the student said: "Shut up guys!" as we were laughing at him. He then said: "This was the best Health class ever!" He also thought class was over and tried to leave with seven minutes left. It was funny to see him so disorientated. Hilarious. You may not find this funny, but it made my day.

Well, it made my day beside hanging with my friend Mel and her baby. That baby is one cute kid. I like babies. It is fun to see them grow up! It is still a bit weird to think my friends have kids. Fun though! Check our her blog on the side of my blog under Melanie and Michael.

I like Fall!

My house is 60 degrees. This makes me very happy inside. I slept so well last night with the cooler weather. I love Fall; it makes me happy. Too bad it has to be followed by winter!

Today was good. Went fast...that is always good!

What else?

I went grocery shopping and watched Chuck. Thrill of the day!

I hope you had a great Monday. I don't have much else.

To Be or Not To Be?

Even though The Packers have lost the past three games, I am still a fan. Even though Brett Farve has been doing very well with the Jets and even had 6 touchdown passes in one game(a personal record), I do not like him. I am one of those fans that thinks he is an idiot and made a whole lot of drama injuring his image and The Packers. So when asked: To be or not to be a Packer fan? The answer is: TO BE! How many seasons in my life have The Packers had a losing season? More than I can remember them having winning seasons, actually. I have stuck around for 31 years, I think I can make it another season!

Well, enough about The Packers. I don't know what else to write about. I guess I will give you a run down of the weekend. Friday, I went to burger Friday with friends from work. Yummy Red Robin. Then I went for a Gallery Stroll of downtown Provo with some friends. The highlight wasn't so much the art as it was the random grills for roasting marshmallows. We had a fun time roasting and playing with fire. I then went to my friend Christine's house and had a sleep over with her and her five year old, Aiden. We slept in a tent in their front room. I really didn't sleep much with five year old foot in my back but it was a good adventure. We had pancakes for breakfast and then I went home to watch General Conference for church. It was good but I was pretty much sleepy and didn't' get a whole lot out of it. Good thing they publish the talks in a week online. Check it out at lds.org.

I headed up to Sandy last night and have been hanging out with the Bills since. We watched Ironman last night and got Astro Burger for dinner. Then we just hung out today and watched the Sunday parts of General Conference. I was a bit more awake today even though I was woken up several times last night by Sarah's miniature donkeys that were in the back yard. She bought them yesterday and took them home today. They are cute and we came up with lots of fun names for them. One could be Jack the other Whoop. Funny. We had lots but I probably shouldn't write them all and corrupt all of you. Right now we are watching Stranger Than Fiction, a wonderful movie. If you have not seen it, you should. I love Will Farrell. He is amazing. I don't want to think about going back home and the weekend being over. It goes to fast. Only 10 days until Fall Break, though. Vegas here I come soon!