Openness

September is The Month of Openness. One of my friends always has a theme for the month. I love it. So far, I have not been doing a good job with being open and have only been good at being bitter. Maybe this will be an open post. I actually really like the idea of lists these days too so I think today will be an openness list. So here is some honesty:

1. I got hit in the nose in the head with a frisbee today. I was mad at myself for having head rage and yelling at the kid who threw it because he is one of the littlest and sweets kids I have.
2. I yelled at a kid today because he is just mean, mean, mean. The sad thing about that is that the only way he will react and listen to me is if I am loud and mean toward him. I think I really need to get into this one's head. Meaning that even though I really want to be mean to him, I really just need to be the nicest person I can be to him.
3. I am tired to losing at softball. My team is not very good and I am having a hard time just having fun playing. I am even wishing I would be on a different team, which is silly because I love the people on my team. They are wonderful human beings. A few of them are not good softball players. I am just saying. I still love them.
4. I am having a hard time deciding what I am wanting to do with the rest of my life. Sometimes I love my job so much that I think I could do it forever. Sometimes, like after boys PE today, I sit down and say: "What the hell am I doing? This is crazy. There has to be something else I could do that would be easier!" I realize though that nothing is every easy and I have it really, really good. (sorry about the "hell" use. It added emphasis.)
5. I am very frustrated that I have to call my flex spending people again this year to have them re-send my card. They spelled my name completely wrong. It is crazy because I am sure I do not misspell my name when I fill out the paper work.
6. I need to clean my house but I never want to.
7. I am easily irritated by children being loud near my house.
8. I have lost six pounds since school started thanks to riding my bike to school. I am very proud of this.
9. Politics make me sick and I have no clue who to vote for. I feel like this is the second election in a row where I don't have great choices for leaders. That makes me sad. What is wrong with our world?
10. I have a hard time getting myself to bed. I really value my free time and hate to see it end. So, I stay up much too late and then have hard times with students. What a weirdo. But sometimes when I go to bed earlier, I sleep too much and am then tired. Weird.

Well that is the openness for today. I am, of course, interpreting openness to mean honesty, when really it is all about being open for new possibilities, especially in dating. I think I am pretty open seeing I will pretty much say yes to any guy these days. SIGH.

Happy Friday!